new year

what the hell, i,m gonna try the best i can (,cos the best i can is good enough) to try the best i can to mend my ways - i,m gonna learn the songs i,m gonna write new ones i,m gonna do it, yes hereby

this one,s for you. i still have faith in friends who have proved nearly unreliable, but deliciously insane. in spite of big mouths and the like - i still can,t even mention the subject - she,s the only one to whom i,ve been able to openly confess myself, and that,s yet another reason to love her. - it,s not that someone might read this and suffer a sudden blast of knowledge, it,s not that somebody might find out about this... it,s me, up to now i can,t believe the treason, it still hurts badly, so badly. so fucking badly. forgiven but sadly not forgotten. what the hell i,m gonna try the best i can. ups and downs in the plot. i,m completely off the rails. love to all.