if things were to go wrong

lately i,ve been suffering a kind of depression in my life and there are different causes, i would say.

some of them have to do with my addictions, of which i haven,t been able to get enough and this is making me sick. waiting for the right phone call to come... perhaps i should quit for once and all, and leave behind all this dirt... but would my personality be changed by that? i just don,t know but if i never try...

and i,m going through another low, i can,t be happy when i,m with her - by now.

my blood thickens, my laughter dies and my hands freeze... we really do need some time together to sort things out, to find happiness again

and my job slowly kills me, bruises that won,t heal

and people keep asking me why i like radiohead...

they sing my life

and it is significant that i,ve talked a whole lot more about drugs than about my girl

literary suicides

beautiful

harmless

& useful