downs

and i,m not going thru a good period in my life-again. she,s not going thru a good period in her life-again, and that doesn,t make things any better. a lot of work to do just to release my boss from paperwork burden and that doesn,t make things any better. and i,m letting my family down in a moment in which they need my help, and my attention is so blurred and weak that i don,t have any fucking second for myself.i,ve even run out of clean washed clothes. i can,t sleep, i try to stay awake as long as possible so that i don,t have to wake up in the dead of night waiting for sleep to come again. weed is not of any help, pills are not of any help, and things ain,t seem to be getting better or anywhere. i want to sleep for years, i want to disappear completely and be forgotten. i want to peel the layers of the atoms of which i am made and fly free-at last-from this fucking earth.