maybe i deserve it

i paid for it
300€
wrote the bridge
wrote the lyrics
played the lead guitar
played the bass
sang the backing vocals
imagined the drums
now it,s his
maybe i deserve it
maybe it will be a good story

you should not be here

it,s unreal

today it all suddenly feels unreal

meaninglessness

teenwolf on tv

thief

high

have a shower

make some coffee

sleep

wake up early

just to be in the reds

social appointments

losing my patience

seville drivers deserve a long painful death

sleep tight

now

strange

it,s strange

i sometimes start thinking about having an argument with my girl

she tells me i,m not worth it

she tells me i don,t deserve her

she humilliates me

and i keep standing there, dead but standing

and i walk away, dead man walking

but then back in the world outside - which doesn,t mean the real one -

everything is fine

paranoid thoughts that are whispering me something

that i don,t want to hear

it,s strange

and i owe a lot of money in spite of not being an alcoholic - daddy-like -

i,ve got a steady job - which means monthly incomes -

and i can,t save a cent

i,ve got to pay before earning

just like every single man born on this planet

and by the way...

i thought this would remain a secret. but people from the US, canada, south korea, india, etc... are aware of my blog. i don,t know whether they have discovered it accidentally or not. nevermind. feel free to comment, although, dear friends, you shouldn,t be here.

stressed

and now there,s another problem, the old roach.

becoming unbearable.

the other day i really wanted to stab a knife (and two forks) in its back.

want it to leave to barcelona next summer.

i mean it.

once again

i want to start killing people around