and

i can,t be there for everyone all the time. today i let my girl down just to watch pirates of the caribbean 4 with an old friend, and
to compensate tomorrow i will let my band down on some sms excuse oh how my neck is aching or something like, and
i will do this in the knowledge that i will have to compensate the band so that i will have to let someone else down and, there is no fucking rest for me in this life.
and the roach wakes up just when you arrive after a movie and tells you an ungrateful bastard
and
i want a change
at any cost

those three words

i had declared you deceased just to try to start over again
but now your grandmother says you,re alive
and with one daughter
i had declared you deceased just to get another mantra at night
when dark demons come
to have a different name to comfort me
but you are alive and with one daughter
congratulations
i will see you in the next life

i will not look for you, but how badly i want you to find me

the end (act III)

fuck

it,s over. and by the time being, i don,t want to go back, nor resume at a different point. i give up.
i don,t want to keep the guitar, i don,t want my voice to be heard again, i don,t want my songs played anymore.
it,s fucking over. and by the time being, i,m doing quite fine.


and the other blog can also go to hell





AND YOU SHOULD NOT BE HERE, FUCK

brain damage

hypocondriach as i am i think i may have a brain tumor
get inside one of those terryfying machines which make life more livable
get the news
here,s the news
chew swallow choke on it
hypocondriach as i am i will never see them again my loved ones
spelling mistakes make me cry in front of a thousand pedestrians
can,t imagine
don,t want to think about
how life could be without you
when i,m dead

i give up

well, i think it,s obvious by now
i fell into a deep black hole
and i,m going to explode
sooner or later
i only want to sleep
nothing makes me happy
not even slightly
well i think it was obvious from the start
written in the stars above
i want to be hit by a fast german car