up up through my heart and to my brain

know what?
i thought things could be different this time, but then they weren,t
people around me are becoming increasingly annoying
at work at home hollow at the core
so the sounds echo within incredibly loud
i,ll be alone in the long run
she,s so bossy, i feel like i,m being torn away from my family (is that so bad?) and friends (this is bad)
and i have to wear a mask everytime i,m with hers... all the time... maternity mode...
and things at work are not appealing either, everybody wears masks and pretends, and pretends to be pretending
they freak me out
they fake me off
and i shouldn,t be here
in fact i shouldn,t be anywhere
which is stronger? i shouldn,t be anywhere? i should be nowhere?
fuck!