goodbye
i have no distance left to run
i have drunk the whole cup
goodbye
be well wherever you are
by the way, i,m doing fine
goodbye

or just a stalker from the past?

or maybe i,m just a fucked-up paranoid

we separate like ripples on a blank shore

well, it,s been a long while. things have been going on quite well during the last few months, i guess. nonetheless, today i have been forced to write again. another low. i feel something stirring inside me. something that is increasingly aching every inch of my skin. i cannot name it. maybe it,s loneliness. i feel like i am being deprived of my friends. and maybe it is my fault. i cannot say. maybe it is the distance. maybe it is me. i still miss you so very much. i still leitmotiv your name, whispering, afraid to be heard. i would fucking love to see you once more. even though i know we wouldn,t have much to say. i would fucking love to see you once more. through a keyhole. to know you,re somewhere, although it is with someone else. your daughter is so lucky to have you. i would really love to see you again. just one more hug. and then let you go forever. i,m living in the lie this world has made me believe. i guess i should get used to it.