i won the lottery and died the next day

i choke on an enormous feeling of loneliness - i choke on an enormous feeling of anger

i want nonetheless to be more isolated - i want to start killing people around

i want to cry

i want to shout this out loud

i,m choking

i want to be folded centrefold, kept in a drawer and forgotten about

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the extinction of desire is nirvana

we are the causes of our own suffering

silogisms are cruel

but fair

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i want to cry

i want to die

literally

no more black-on-white suicides

blurred sight

jolly life-like social networks

make me wanna cry over spilt life

and life spirals down like tap water in a sink

it,s over

nothing left to see

nothing

it,s over

fighting back though there,s no victory for me

broken spines white wine and sleeping pills

it,s over

nothing left to feel

nothing

it,s over

and here i am standing dead on both my feet

what i was was lost along a way of needles and pins

it,s over

nothing left to see

nothing

it,s over

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